DREAMS AND VISIONS

Last night I had a really deep dream. I haven't had a dream like this in a while, around 1:13 a.m. I think I had a vision. The background was kind of dark and I saw myself or a spirit wearing a whitesh grey shirt. There were about two men walking beside her, and they kept moving towards me but theyr'e were not walking with their feet. It was weird and it looks like it was in a catholic church. Then the dream I had around 3:53 a.m. I was meditating and I was dressed in Buddhist monk clothing. I'm in a meditative state my hair is up in braids and I'm Auming several times. I see Buddhist monks walking in a straight line and I walk with them my hands are in a praying position and I'm bowing down too. I know before I went to bed I watched the movie "Little Buddha". At the end of the dream I had a Buddha statue it felt more like a clear vision, and I had a Buddha statue and I blessed it with an offering. Maybe I should try praticing that for a while. In the dream A buddhist monk told me not feel lost and not to be fearful. He said:" Don't feel lost or fearful my child."

UPDATES UPDATES

Well I haven't been on here in ages. Nobody comments on here and thats ok. I have been totally out of sync with my "gift". I feel like its been blocked I haven't had any dreams lately and I haven't had a dream in like almost four or five months now. I mean I dream but most of them aren't realistic some of them have come true but not like they used to be. Its like I've lost connection with God even though I still pray daily but it doesn't feel the same. Well here's the latest: I got off half of my liver treatment still finishing up, I'm in college now and during really well, I'm taking natural medicines to help heal my liver, I've been single for quite sometime. I went to a glorious road trip to the mountains. I'm pretty much frustrated on how to go about this spiritual path. I've been dreaming about Orca whales for some reason, I don't even live near the ocean. I get up around 4 or 5 a.m. after the dream. Well I won't give up and I will keep the faith in God. I just have a desire to feel spirituality whole and at peace, I feel kind of restless right now. But I won't give up, I can't remember my drems either it fades so quickly when I wake up. Well until then I'll continue to be strong and have faith.

Recurring Dreams

Well things have been moving very slowly right now. I'm not blaming God for it because its just not right at all. One of the things I am grateful for is my ability to be strong and just go with the wind. For years since 2002 all I was concentrating on graduating from high school and I did it. When I did I was happy for a short amount of time it was like an adrenaline rush but its gone now. I dunno what else to concentrate on and I guess I'm suppossed to use this time for spiritual growth. Its time to get some books and do some research on spiritual growth, and thats all I can do right now. I need to amp myself up and not be so hard on myself all the time. I don't like being sad and I can't wait for the summer to come. In June I'll be going out of town to Gary, Indiana to visit my family. Last night I had another dream of Native Americans I have them once or twice a month. I was in the woods and I was in traditional clothing in a tribe then I went into the time I live in now. I met a Native American man in the elevator and he looked so familar in the dream and he was standing proud and tall. He had long hair and he looked and smiled at me. I know I was told that some of the dreams I had were memories of my previous life of four lives ago I was a Native American woman. But what I need to know is if I have Native American spirit gudies, and are they trying to contact me. The second question is am I suppossed to be with them in this life time.

JOURNEY BEGINS

Well its taking me a while to learn how to use this blog. Tomorrow I'm going to the park downtown and read. I love it down there I haven't been in months at a time. I feel like I'm starting a spiritual journey. I was looking at someone's blogg about Orca whales, and it was so totally inspiring. I'm not hung up on why I haven't had a man in my life yet, because I'm realizing that I am worthy and I am enough. Even though things are moving kind of slow this is a time for spiritual and personal growth. I am going through emotional ups and downs and learning to be more of myself around who ever. I feel good right now and I feel like I'm in a good place. I'm getting more peaceful on in the inside and I know good things will come to me becasue I'm patiently waiting. Prayers have been answered, soldiers from here in Georgia came home from Iraq!!! I graduated from an high school program, I'll be off my liver treatment in may! The prayer I'm doing now is for my parents, and sister. I just hope and pray that my parents recive their first paycheck so we can use it to help people, and for family time. My intution is telling me that a man will be helping me really soon.

FIRST BLOG

I like this new site. Today wasn't interesting, and my days have been a little slow. Later on today I'm going to the boys and girl's club to get an application for volunteering. I can't wait I love working with kids. I'm trying very hard to be strong on this spiritual journey but I am willing to take to this path and I feel like I am chosen to do so. Feel free to leave a comment.